For an entire year, I had this photo as my Facebook cover photo….
I don’t think I have the ability to grade if I was more awesome than last year. I will leave that up to my friends. This year has been fraught with struggles, triumphs and lots of change.
- Friendships that went bad.
- Selling Our Home
- Leaving our Chattanooga friends
- Learning to live with my new body post baby #3
- Moving into a home more than half the size of our previous home
- Having to restart in the birth community in Nashville…connecting to others and becoming a known name in the childbirth circles
- Living on a new budget
- Balancing between my need for solitude and my children’s need for me
- Selling our home in three months
- Getting a new mode of transportation…the Yuba Mundo cargo bike
- Getting to know our new city
- Making friends quickly in the Nashville area and working on some deeper relationships with some of those ladies…trusting other women can be hard but very rewarding when you find a friend that is really awesome.
- Getting to play my cello again in an orchestra
- Seeing my children learning new things
- Becoming closer to my husband
- Accepting Jesus into my life…even though I still have no idea what that means and I don’t think I have the feeling inside that others do but trying to learn more
- Having some pretty amazing friends that lifted me up when I needed it the most
- Building a pretty awesome website and joining up with some pretty great ladies in the hopes that we can continue to help the birth community in Nashville
- Writing down a new goal list on my 33rd birthday (although, I’m already seeing some of those goals changing)
So, I feel like a need a new mantra for this year. I saw a quote supposedly by Picasso the other day that resonated with me. Maybe it is because people kept thanking me at church for sharing my “gift” after playing my cello. I never viewed it as me sharing, more of a selfish endeavor on my part because I really just wanted to play. However the quote is this: “The meaning of life is to find your gift. The purpose of life is to give it away.”
I’m hoping this year, I can help others more while still taking enough time to rejuvenate myself. I know I can not give too much, otherwise I will crash and burn. However, if I can give little gifts of myself, maybe I will be a little more “awesome” in 2014.